a little musing, a little philosophizing, a little ranting, a whole lot of nothing, really.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

packing up

All my bags are packed... I'm ready to go...

I'm ready to move from one apartment in Montreal to another. It was scary, because it was a great home for two years and the new one does not have all the great things the old one does. But now that the lease is signed and I have no choice, I might as well be excited, and I am. It made it easier to leave when I heard my downstairs neighbour (who I've called the police on)
yelling at is wife as he got in a car with another woman- "I can lose the fat, but you can't lose the ugly!".

Also, things are looking up and falling together. I'm going to be PAID to speak at a banquet because my business was so successful last year. I almost have a cast for my play. I have sponsors for my play. Since the newspaper articles came out, I have had more phone calls for camp. Maybe I won't fail miserably at working this summer. Maybe it'll be great again.

And Montreal feels like home. Funny how two days can change my perspective.

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Entrepreneur

My business is failing.

Boourns.

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Education

I really, really, really love school. And want to be learning right now. Instead of trying to make money and not having any money, and worrying about life.

I miss doing group projects and hanging out with theatre kids and the 24 hour theatre challenge, and bitching about school. I miss girls lunch and my own place and tax return parties. I miss sleeping in my bed and eating frozen pizza for most of my meals. I miss missing my friends, as weird as that sounds.

But generally, my life is in decent shape, I can't complain. Just bored.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Meghan's current list of annoyances:

-having one of those days when you know you look your best, but no one will see you. Then never looking good again.
-people that are happier than me. Not really. Well, kind of.
-still not over the fact that men find me intimdating. wow.
-yard sales. why do they need to start so early? do you really think there will be an actual treasure in all my crap? why do I have so much crap?
-bug bites.
-people worrying about hurting my feelings for stupid reasons and not for legitimate reasons.
-being asked my opinion then being told I shouldn't say that.
-squirrels.

But things are generally okay.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Generally I try not to indulge myself in being particularly grumpy or bitter for an extended period of time (I prefer many short spurts). But it's now official: I'm a drag. Since I got back from Australia all I've wanted is to go back. Over there my head was clear and everything felt on track. I've returned and my life is not on the track I want at all, quite far from it, in fact. I'm not unhappy or anything, I mean, I know how lucky I've got it when my main problem in life is boy related and my worst discomfort recently was some less than perfect social gatherings and a bad hangnail.

Anyway, I'm hoping that once this play gets started and I allow myself to get over my dumb girlness the track will reappear and life will go as I thought it would.

Also: apparently men find me intimidating. Huh.

Also: I had some major, major self-esteem boosting this week. That was nice.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Blue Lavender Dilly Dilly Dilly Dilly.... dilly

Meh...