TIME! My goodness

I have so much to do in the next three days, and am not getting it done. There are so many things I want to do that I know I won't, so many thoughts I need to complete, but can't. So many conversations that should happen, but aren't going to. Too much for me to even think of and I'm panicking, and we all know that's a bad time, and I want to tie up loose ends with camp, but can't, and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

And I'm getting a little scared again...

Meghan

Camp is over. I did it. And was rewarded... with a trophy with a bird on it... Huzzah for self-employment!

Went to Simcoe Island. It was a wonderful time, even though I fell asleep every time I sat down. I think camp literally wore me out. Had a vodka filled dream that actually frightened me. Dressed up like a hick and listened to country music as we toured around Wolfe Island. Bugged James as a sentry. Swam. Chilled in a trailer. Sat in the back of a pick up truck filled with dirt, looking at the moon and eating cookies. Fell in a lake of muck almost right away. Sat on a rock.

I am happy. School is coming.

Birthday Celebration #4

Was fantastic. I was surprised and really, really touched. Not only did I get to chill with some of my favourite people, who gave me cake and photographs and the recipe to the best bars EVER and a colouring contest entry form... but I felt really loved and that was nice.

It made me sad, for the first time this summer, about going back to school. I love these people so much, and am terrified of losing them. I know I won't LOSE them, and I know that this year I kept in touch with most of my high school friends ridiculously and exceptionally well. The summer has been very busy, the most hectic summer of my life what with running a business... but I saw everyone and although it was different, it was still very nice.

I have warm fuzzies inside.

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I also went to Montreal this past weekend, and it was wonderful. I miss living by myself, and was soooo excited to see new roommate stuff moved in. We walked around and just looked. We saw the gardens and chilled in Old Montreal. Had my ass groped by an old man(which peeves the hell out of me...). Just got away, and felt kind of at home. Despite almost taking us to Laval. Whoops.
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I'm in a very happy mood. Huzzah!

Shit

I really, really screwed up today. So much that I might have just messed my chances to receive the rest of my grant. I'm quite upset, kind of excessively so. I'm trying to fix it as best I can. I made myself look so unprofessional, just because I looked at the wrong day in the calendar. Goddamn, I was all ready to look lovely, give an awesome little speech and kick ass. And now I look like an irresponisbile teenager. FUCK. And it's true, I am, because if I wasn't, I wouldn't have screwed up so badly.

I'm a stupid mess, from being super happy three hours ago. I need a hug.

Dwayne

When Chandra caught the toad, I had one of the happiest feelings inside, ever.

My friends constantly surprise me. I think we've changed, and then I realize that the parts I love about them will always be there. And that's wonderful.

I'm really happy. Tired, at that point of exhaustion where I kind of feel drunk all of the time, but happy. I'm in a good place right now. I look forward to school, but also enjoy here. I have to go to a banquet tomorrow, which is silly, but I'll live. Camp is breaking me a bit ("Shut up!" came out of my mouth today). A week and a bit left.

I'm just... I don't even know. Huzzah?

I'm old

Grants are stressful.

Slumber parties are not. Especially when you fall asleep while watching the Olympic opening ceremony for the third time and eat home made cinnamon rolls.

Babysitting is a good time. Except for when creepos think you are a MILF. I'm too young to have a toddler! Well, not technically, but...

Sleeping is good, shopping in TO is good... life is good.