Shit

I really, really screwed up today. So much that I might have just messed my chances to receive the rest of my grant. I'm quite upset, kind of excessively so. I'm trying to fix it as best I can. I made myself look so unprofessional, just because I looked at the wrong day in the calendar. Goddamn, I was all ready to look lovely, give an awesome little speech and kick ass. And now I look like an irresponisbile teenager. FUCK. And it's true, I am, because if I wasn't, I wouldn't have screwed up so badly.

I'm a stupid mess, from being super happy three hours ago. I need a hug.