One day, I will be involved with Shakespeare in the Park.

People turn around, and constantly surprise me. They hurt each other, they are selfish, they try too hard, they don't try hard enough. People are hurting right now. People are being put down. People are tired of taking shit, and people are tired of giving shit. People care, but not enough. People care too much. People wonder if things would be different, then when they change, they are sad. The world is a complicated place. There is a lot of pain in the world. We have all been hurt. We have all hurt others. Sometimes even intentionally.

I LOVE my friends. All of them. Even ones that piss me off, even ones I have complained about in the past. I know that deep down, they all have generous hearts, they all feel love, they all want happiness. I want them to have that. But not at the cost of others. People have the power to get over nearly anything. People overcome obstacles every day. Emotional scars heal as well as physical ones. You have to press on. You have to look at the big picture. You have to love yourself, which is very, very hard to do. We will never be smart enough, pretty enough, cool enough, wise enough, tall enough, funny enough... It's impossible. We have to make do with what we have. So what if I can't express my opinions, my convictions are strong enough and I can often convince others. So what if I have a fat ass, I have nice boobs and a cute smile. So what if I don't have a gazillion friends, most of the ones I do have I wouldn't trade for more. My life is good, even when I feel bad. I have everything I need. A roof over my head, food to eat, people to talk to, love for and from others. I have books to learn from, I have friends to help me, I have a car, I have a pen and paper, I have a ballet dancer room mate.

You have all you need to, whoever you are. So what if people get on your nerves? So what if you are sad? Sadness heals. You have love. If you don't feel it, it doesn't matter, because it is there. I promise. Someone loves you. I love you!

I will miss everyone so much.

This probably made little sense, it is late, and I am very tired. I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say. Just know that things always look up. You are loved. You have a good life. Now, go eat some yogurt, drink a glass of water, and have a nap.